Last Night before we depart

Hi diary,
I am back again, after a very long gap.Its the last night together before my mother will arrive and 2 months curfew period starts. And probably last night in this house because I think he'll go to his hometown and then has to shift after coming back. I love this house. I have collected infinite memories here. I love this place, where I have spent most cherished moments of my life. This very room from where I writing this blog, I love everything about it. Broken cot, always present table which always was(only few hours left here thts y using was) my companion in sharing my load. A chair which is not permanent resident of this room but I love it anyways. Love watching outside the window, the tree, the front house, the sky, the flowers...everything witnessed what I experienced here. I love the kitchen where I watched him preparing food and loved it. Loved the way he cut vegetables...the typical expression only he can give...:).
He is sleeping right now. Just want to kiss him goodnight as I will never be able to do that again in this house atleast. He looks so cute when he sleeps..I can watch him all night. How will I be able to survive the coming 2 months. I just hope that I don't miss him too much....although i know that is not possible. I already miss him though he is right in front of me.How can I tell him that how much I love him. He deserves infinite love..I don't know whether I will be able to give him atleast 1/10th of it.
As this is my last night here..I thought probably we can talk all night atleast till 2 or 3. But he slept, as always. I know he is not able to stay up all night...but today was special...so...anyways it doesn't matter...I got him thats the biggest gift or reward of my life.
I pray from the bottom of my heart, my love get whatever he loves...including me ofcourse...:D

Love u jaan...forever and always...rhea

DEATH

Believe me,if u can, when I die,
I want you to be by my side.

Will ask you to hold me tight,
As it was and will always be only your right.

I want to be close to your heart, so that I can hear,
Because its the only thing that soothes my ear.

When tears will flow down my cheeks,
Please fake a smile, for it is what I seek.

Embrace me, hold my hand and give me a kiss,
In heaven or hell, I want to remember it and not miss.

Our souls so close, so in sync,
vanishing off all my despair, leaving me pink.

I wont lose sight of u, and never close my eyes,
As I want to remember ur face, ur smile ,ur voice.

He will come,take me away from u and put my life to an end,
But before that happens I just want to say I love u once again.