Friday, August 22, 2008

SOMEONE......


SOMEONE.......a word....which effects your life in every possible way.Someone....the one,someone.....always yours,someone.....hurts,someone......leaves,someone......reliable........or in short a word giving meaning to your existence.
It is hard to believe that their is a person who can make you so vulnerable to life(or to death may be),such that "IT"(its better this way) can control your life.Knows so much about you that 'it' is better to stay away rather than going closer(which obviously we all do).
At some point of time,it all feels so perfect.Its like,life actually giving you more than what you want.That their is someone who thinks about you,care about you....loves you.Their is 'it',who can make you feel beautiful even though you look creepy,comes to you in times you needed 'it' the most,gives you all the reasons in the world to trust it,to tell you how 'it' feels about you every time you are having a single doubt in your mind about going further with 'it'.
You are enjoying every moment of your life with 'it'......whether it is getting wet in the rain,talking your heart out without thinking of consequences of what advantage 'it' is going to take,sitting alone with 'it' in a starry night...doing nothing and feeling the beauty that how much you enjoy even the silence with 'it',taking a long walk....barefoot.....on the road.....just talking nonsense.........discussing topics you never been interested in....just to keep 'it' talking to you, and all this just because you think that this 'it' can be your someone.
But I guess you are wrong from the beginning. This 'it' can never be the one whom you are searching for all this time and fooling yourself by letting you believe that may be this is the last mistake 'it' did.But at last you know,none of those mistakes were last.Those mistakes were just the beginning of few others.......and this never ends,until you realized that the only way to end up all this is to end up your search for that someone in 'it'.
So bloggers....if by chance any of you are reading this,just wanted to say......all the things i have written above are true.....but that doesn't stop us from keep searching our someone,because 'it' is out their somewhere,waiting for you to show up and reach to 'it' and make 'it' feel that it is really not 'it'...but 'it' is actually someone......your SOMEONE.

Tuesday, August 12, 2008

wanna scream

I don't know in what state of mind am I right now.....but whatever it is, it just consumed all of me.My power,my strength,my confidence.....everything and every bit of it.I don't have a single ray of hope left in my life.....just wanna scream, and scream,and scream..........and scream.Just want to get away from all of this happening to me.........why me only. I know there are lots of people out their who r suffering more than me...but why only me among all others I know actually deserve to be sad.I don't know why I am being so selfish,so mean....but that is what I am feeling right now.
Just want to go to my best friend and spill it all out.It is all piling up in my mind and I can't take it any more.I am going to burst with all this pain.Just want to see my parents happy.Don't they deserve to be happy.....and when there is chance that I may fulfill their dreams,I am not able to find the way out of the place I am stuck in.
Want to do everything for them.....for me.Everything possible in this world to see them smiling.I suppose not every dream is meant to be fulfilled....not every heart finds what it seeks.....not every eye sees the world the way they wanted it to be......not every moment needs to be your best......That's what I call Broken Dreams.